Unexpected

Here's something I was not expecting. I miss being pregnant.

Despite the fact that I had a very easy pregnancy, I was obviously looking forward to having an outside baby. Because no matter how connected you feel to the inside baby - it won't compare to having the baby live and in the flesh, right?

Well...right. Being able to look at Ellis Rose every day and learn her moods, her expressions her likes and dislikes cannot compare to anything. But, I still miss being pregnant.

I miss the way I felt when I was pregnant. I miss feeling Ellis move. I miss not having to worry if my belly is sticking out too much. I miss having her with me always. (Okay, so she's still pretty much with me always but we aren't physically connected anymore and that makes it different.)

And, I'll admit it, I miss the attention. People are at their best around a pregnant woman - opening doors, giving up their spot in the grocery line, offering advice and opinions (albeit unsolicited) and just making conversation.

So the solution to all of this would be to get pregnant again, right? Ha! Since we took the maternity rider off our health insurance, this is not a possibility right now. But I will say I am looking forward to future pregnancies more than I thought possible at this stage in the game.

And being not pregnant has its benefits too - not least of which is the ability to drink a glass of wine. And going back to non-maternity clothes. Those two things alone will keep me from becoming the next Michelle Duggar.